eros has affected my life for as long as i can remember..
lets go back, back to where my chaotic life with eros begins..
kindergarten. his name was..actually..no real names here..
i'll use his initials, m.m. he was sucha cutie.
we were in home room together, and i'd always sit by him, we would share crayons, read books together, chase each other during recess..etc
one day during recess some of the girls and i were sitting underneath the playground set in the corner near the monkey bars (this was our spot btw, other girls claimed the side near the slides) anyway, we were sitting there talking about boys and how they wanted to kiss them and i told them that i knew how to have sex with them. here i am, a five year old saying i knew what sex was like, do you see something wrong here? i'll get back to that..so i told them i saw it on 90210 and that if we just chased him down, we can sex him. so they ask me what sex was and i said simple, you just kiss the boy alot..and so that was our mission, chase m.m. and attack him with kisses..
five years old.
im still shocked that came out of my mouth.
just seeing and hearing things on television and repeating it to friends.
i didnt know what sex was then, but even then it had such a huge influence on our society that the idol in our culture was/is eros.
then and even more so today.
a vast majority of entertainment in our society is centered around eros.
eros is the greek god of love, lust, romance and intercourse.
are we corrupted by him?
that our everyday life is affected by him?
has what he's given us so important that we feel like we cannot carry on a relationship without him?
i feel like every relationship i've had has been centered around him
i'm on a journey to find myself through sharing my stories of past love interests, lovers, and friends..
so what happened that day with m.m.?
i remember this day very well..it was going to be my chance to kiss him!
so we chased him down, cornered him into our "spot" by the monkey bars
attacked him with kisses..but did i? no.
who hogged my very first crush?
my then bestfriend.
don't trust chinese girls, they're scandalous.jk.
notice i said, "my then bestfriend"
yes, she became a skank by 6th grade.
kidding.
it was more like 8th grade.
